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I Hate That I Love You
I
Hate that I love you,
I hate how I care,
I hate that need you,
I hate how you’re unaware.
You think that you’re helping
You think this needs to be done
You think that letting me stay
Is handing me a loaded gun
Every time you cross my mind
My body is riddled with Hate
The fury rises through me
My sweat glands precipitate
I shake and clench my fists
And choke back bitter tears
The lump in my throat becoming
visible in the bathroom mirror
All my childhood I adored you
Adulated and idolized you at That
We did so much together
Parks, zoos, libraries, naps
You were always my biggest fan
Cheerleader in all I did
But then things slowly changed
As I slowly stopped being a kid
Adolescence was the start
Of a long, painful road
It tore apart you and I
Like a dissection of a toad
I’m not quite sure what happened
Or how we became this way
You waited so long, tried so hard
and yet the love just didn’t stay
Everyone including you
Think what you do is out of Love
But I walk a thin porcelain line
More fragile than a dove
I need your help now and always
But you don’t understand
I’d say it was on purpose that
you’re sick of holding my hand
But I know that I am wrong
And that simply is not true
I know because I have
And always will love You.
